LiFe’S a BiTcH .. DuN yOu ThiNk So?

First of all .. i’d like to wish myself a happy 17th birthday! happy birthday to me! second, i’d like to thank all my buddies and friends who wished me happy birthday and gave me so presents! thx guyz, luv ya loads! dunno wat i’ll do without y’all! so thx again .. Thirdly, i’d like to thank my family members and relatives for da small dinner and birthday cake and gifts! thx guys, luv y’all loads too .. haiz .. 2day is juz one of the days dat i’m suppose to be happy abt .. but den, i cant help but feel depress and sad 2day .. i will nt state the reasons lah .. but i will state one reason, i feel dat something is missing 2day lah .. there is a big space some where lah .. haiz .. feel like dat all da time .. oh well, hope to find something to fill up dat space soon .. all my blues are coming back again .. oh man .. y man? y cant da blues juz go away? i hate dat feeling .. everytime i come back home, i go out, it juz comes .. haiz .. dunno how long i can hang in there .. i’m starting to tink dat, i’ve become more insignicant .. more useless and stuff .. haiz .. i only hope dat next year, will be a better year for me .. aight .. happy bday to myself again .. or maybe, nt happy ..  : (

5th Day of Os : victory or da battle today .. (geography elective) phew .. tmr another battle .. FnN .. helluva stuff to study .. haiz ..

2day’s battle: an unknown enemy, little is known abt dis enemy .. da only intelligence i got is dat it is something da da first battle on da first day(Maths paper 1) but a tougher one .. MATHS PAPER 2 .. Outcome of battle? i dunno .. can’t tell if i’ve win anot .. only know i either got a 50/50 chance of winning or 40/60 chance of winning da battle .. da truth is dat i found da qstns tough lah .. dunno how 2 do some .. den got no time somore .. i dunno whether can pass anot .. haiz .. i dunno lah .. juz got a very bad feeling .. can only hope for da best and prepare for da next battle … wish myself luck i guess ..

Aight .. gd news and bad news .. gd news, all 3 "battles" wif da 3 papers (EL 1 & 2 and Comb science 2[physics] ) was victorious .. bad news, paper wasnt easy, juz moderately easy only .. so didnt know how to answer some questions .. but all it matters is dat i got thru this 3 papers liao … my only wish now is dat i will emerge victorious on friday’s "battle" .. MATHS PAPER 2 !! OMG OMG OMFG! .. cannot fail dis one .. if fail dis one da second alphabet will appear .. " I_ _ " i only hope for da best  .. wish myself luck ..

TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY MAN ..! A REALLY HAPPY ONE! LOL ! I’VE WON DA THIRD "BATTLE" ..! yay! chemistry paper 2 day was a piece of cake !! it was more easier den i tot it was gonna be .. yay .. totally reboost my morale for da next few paper .. i feel hope surging thru my body now! i only hope dat tmr’s 4th, 5th and 6th "battle" will be victorious …! = )

two sentence .. i lost 2 battles wif "HELL"(Os) …  and i’m very very very very very very very very very very sad, disappointed, demoralised .. no one wud understand how i feel now .. no one .. i was actually very confident of da second paper (Social Studies)… i knew my maths(first paper) was quite screwed .. was hoping to boost my morale to chiong da SS paper .. cuz i was very confident for da topics dat me and most of my class predicted .. study all da topics in 5 days by hard .. even how hard it was, i still carried on studying for SS .. cuz i noe dat it was one of my best subjs .. predicted topics : merger and separation, education, healthcare and population .. when i entered da hall i was still quite confident .. den when we sat in our seats, one of my classmates open his qstn sheet .. he whispered my name and did da "cut neck" (means we’ll in deep shit) sign .. he whiperered, " Venice  .." Venice was one of da chapters dat was in da Social Studies syllabus .. however we were nt taught by da teachers at all !!  Both 5N classes .. and u noe wat da teachers tell us long before dis paper when we prompt him abt they nt teaching us dat topic? They told us dat half of S’pore was studying dat chapter on Venice and it wasnt a hot topic .. WAD A LOAD OF BULLSHIT! .. It came out in da Os paper 2day .. worse of all .. NONE OF DA TOPICS DAT MY CLASSMATES AND ME PREDICTED& STUDIED BY HARD CAME OUT!! WHAT DA FCUKING HELL?! topics dat came out : Foreign Talent, SRI LANKA, INTERNATIONAL CONFLICTS and VENICE!!! when i saw da paper .. i was like frozen there .. i was like c’mon man? none of da topics predicted came out ..? how can dis happen 2 me? why? how? my spirit and morale juz sunk all da fcuking way down .. all da way down .. i was helpless and shocked .. i didnt noe wat to write .. WTFH IS WRONG? Y ALL DA NONE HOT TOPICS CAME OUT? ALL DA 5 DAYS STUDYING HARD FOR THOSE CHAPS ARE WASTED JUZ LIKE DAT .. i shud have spend da 5 days instead to pia my maths … den at least got salvation for my maths .. but den .. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH  !!!!!!!!!!! WHY? aww man .. my plan for poly has been screwed .. i knew that there was no hope for my chinese and maths liao .. so my only option was to do well for da rest of my subjs .. den at least appealing wud be easier ..
EL : B3
Maths : B4/ C5
COMB SCIENCE : A1/A2 (Physics and Chem)
COMB HUMANS (SS and Geog) : A1/A2 < ————– how now? screwed it here liao ..
FnN : A1/A2
how now ? i really dunno .. maybe I _ _  is da choice for me .. ( the other 2 alphabets will be revealed if my performance on da next few subjects are bad) haiz ..

dun tok me .. juz dun .. i feel like shit .. i dun want 2 tok abt it .. i cant stand dis sec 5 shit !  i juz cant handle  it ..

two sentence .. i lost 2 battles wif "HELL"(Os) …  and i’m very very very very very very very very very very sad, disappointed, demoralised .. no one wud understand how i feel now .. no one .. i was actually very confident of da second paper (Social Studies)… i knew my maths(first paper) was quite screwed .. was hoping to boost my morale to chiong da SS paper .. cuz i was very confident for da topics dat me and most of my class predicted .. study all da topics in 5 days by hard .. even how hard it was, i still carried on studying for SS .. cuz i noe dat it was one of my best subjs .. predicted topics : merger and separation, education, healthcare and population .. when i entered da hall i was still quite confident .. den when we sat in our seats, one of my classmates open his qstn sheet .. he whispered my name and did da "cut neck" (means we’ll in deep shit) sign .. he whiperered, " Venice  .." Venice was one of da chapters dat was in da Social Studies syllabus .. however we were nt taught by da teachers at all !!  Both 5N classes .. and u noe wat da teachers tell us long before dis paper when we prompt him abt they nt teaching us dat topic? They told us dat half of S’pore was studying dat chapter on Venice and it wasnt a hot topic .. WAD A LOAD OF BULLSHIT! .. It came out in da Os paper 2day .. worse of all .. NONE OF DA TOPICS DAT MY CLASSMATES AND ME PREDICTED& STUDIED BY HARD CAME OUT!! WHAT DA FCUKING HELL?! topics dat came out : Foreign Talent, SRI LANKA, INTERNATIONAL CONFLICTS and VENICE!!! when i saw da paper .. i was like frozen there .. i was like c’mon man? none of da topics predicted came out ..? how can dis happen 2 me? why? how? my spirit and morale juz sunk all da fcuking way down .. all da way down .. i was helpless and shocked .. i didnt noe wat to write .. WTFH IS WRONG? Y ALL DA NONE HOT TOPICS CAME OUT? ALL DA 5 DAYS STUDYING HARD FOR THOSE CHAPS ARE WASTED JUZ LIKE DAT .. i shud have spend da 5 days instead to pia my maths … den at least got salvation for my maths .. but den .. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH  !!!!!!!!!!! WHY? aww man .. my plan for poly has been screwed .. i knew that there was no hope for my chinese and maths liao .. so my only option was to do well for da rest of my subjs .. den at least appealing wud be easier ..
EL : B3
Maths : B4/ C5
COMB SCIENCE : A1/A2 (Physics and Chem)
COMB HUMANS (SS and Geog) : A1/A2 < ————– how now? screwed it here liao ..
FnN : A1/A2
how now ? i really dunno .. maybe I _ _  is da choice for me .. ( the other 2 alphabets will be revealed if my performance on da next few subjects are bad) haiz ..

dun tok me .. juz dun .. i feel like shit .. i dun want 2 tok abt it .. i cant stand dis sec 5 shit !  i juz cant handle  it ..

Its 10.40pm now .. writing dis blog entry juz b4 my Os begin tmr .. haiz .. i"m seriously nervous and worried now .. really .. it’s da real stuff and deal tmr man! 2nite is going to be da one of my worse nights .. haiz .. i need all da luck i can get .. i juz wish i can do well and proceed to a poly wif da courses dat i yearn for .. seriously nervous, afraid, worried and freaking out .. i really wish dat dis night wudnt end at all .. so dat tmr nver comes .. haiz .. but i guess dat aint gonna happen .. oh well, gt to face our demons some day .. aight .. to all my friends, peeps, hommies, buddies, pals and so on, taking da Os tmr .. i juz want 2 say, " Its GAMETIME! Lock and Load baby!! The battle awaits us …" .. and all the best for it .. lets all perservere and nver give up and proceed to a poly once and 4 all ! so dat our 5 yrs (5n1 and 5n2) in dis sec sch aint wasted ! dat’s all ! stay cool and super guyz! .. haiz .. …. …. ….. … …  -_-  ..

i juz want 2 give up now .. dis year is da worse !! cant cope wif all da problems and stuff .. haiz .. Os, sch, frends .. all da fucking bullshit .. i breaking down now .. i’m shattered .. it will be my downfall lah .. haiz ..